Feeling Weird…

Been feeling weird the last few days… Really since finishing up moving Cari on Tuesday afternoon. Yesterday I spent 4.5 hrs at Gail James’, then came over here to George and Jeanette’s, just crashed. Likewise today, spent a few hours at Jitters this morning, then a few hours removing wallpaper this afternoon, then came over […]

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Drug Study Phobia

Drug studies. Geez, what a fucked up thing, eh? You get paid (pretty well, by my standards) to be a guinea pig for some nameless huge-ass (and probably evil) drug company. (I mean, any entity that is THAT rich HAS to be evil…) Now, if you even barely know me, you know that I have […]

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Sister’s in Hospital

My sister Deana’s in the hospital. Last night at 7, Mama heard “why? why?” from Deana’s room, ran in there, and found her unconscious on the floor. She tried to revive her, but cdn’t. Called 9-1-1. Ambulance cdn’t reviver her either. Took her to the emergency rm at Spohn South, and finally she came to […]

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She’s OK

Currently Playing Up By Peter Gabriel see related – Signal to Noise – *sigh* she’s ok. Just got back from the hospital. MRI and CAT scans were both negative. They wanted to do an arteriogram/angiogram, but when they explained to her that there was a 5% chance of the procedure causing a stroke, Dna said […]

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Thin Coats

Well; I feel like blogging, and this is supposed to be an old blog, but my new one is unable to take new entries, so, just like i seem to do, i will spread out my life like a thin coat of paint, in a million different directions to try to get my color out […]

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The Lotus Cup is Closed Forever

From the Lotus Cup website: 10 Feb, 2004 After three years, eleven months & ten days (but who’s counting?), Milena and I have decided to call it quits. It is time for us to move on. It has been quite a ride; we have seen several significant setbacks, and we made it through most of them, […]

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Simple. A simple Christmas. A simple life. I appreciate simplicity. Especially since i don’t feel like my life is simple. Just too many things going on. My full-time Mac Manager job; my two classes that equal a half-time job. At least we don’t have the Lotus Cup any more. While we’ve still got loose ends […]

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Blogging is…

blogBlogging is…Blogging is very frustrating… makes me feel somehow inadequate when i can’t get to it regularly… like i’m letting down my “audience.” As if anyone has time to sit and read my blog. I wish i had time to do all the things i would love to do, like create/compose/perform/record music, read books by crazy leftists, help get GWBush kicked out of office ASAP, etc.There are just so many diversions these days… I really think this is one reason the neo-conservatives have been able to take over the White House: the masses of Americans are too busy taking their kids to soccer practice, surfing the web, going to concerts, listening to their iPods, making iMovies, watching “Survivor” and “the Bachelor” and “West Wing” and “Carnivale” and “the Sopranos.” (One of my favorite mottos: “so much TV, so little time…”)I keep hoping that blogging will someday help me get my life together much like journalling used to in the 80s and early 90s. I need to be able to “puke on the page”– even if the page is a computer screen. But there is definitely a difference between writing in pen on paper and typing on a keyboard to a computer display. That whole “computer as separator” thing: the internet gives us “virtual personalities” in which we never really “meet” the people we’re “interacting” with… we never physically touch them… and to me, physical touch is the heart of knowing someone… And that same lack is there in typing to a computer display: touch the plastic of those keys down here, something happens up here on the screen– separate… what a quantum physicist might call a “non-local effect.” As is by “magic.” Which it literally would be to someone from Isaac Newton’s time.Anyway, going to see “Lord of the Ring: Return of the King” tonight! Soo-weet! Opened last night, and Milena & i and Lisa & Matt watched the extended “Fellowship of the Ring” at our place. Guess i’ll just have to remember “Two Towers” on my own… what power films can have…Posted by yugen at December 18, 2003 02:20 PM

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