2015 March 15: added Milena’s sonogram of Kinich’s heartbeat in her womb, and little Sophia greeting me at the end. Also, added a gentle, subtle beat (kick, snare, two rides). And finally got around to transcribing the monologue, which was inspired by hearing the thrush of little Kinich’s developing heartbeat, and upon which the whole composition was inspired.
I wonder sometimes about how we’re born,
how we’re conceived, how consciousness arises from nothing…
Or, is it from nothing, or
are we simply transubstantiated from our previous
spiritual state into a new little embryo?
Or, when does our spirit enter our bodies?
When does our physicality become — spiritual?
When does our soul enliven, animate our body?
Does it happen at conception?
The moment of sperm fertilizing the egg?
Does it happen at the moment of our parents’ orgasm?
Does it happen at the point of birth?
Or is it a gradual thing?
I tend to think that it’s a process.
I tend to think that our spirits, our “Oversouls,” if you will,
make this agreement
while we’re out in the spirit world, in the “Well of Souls,”
we make this agreement with
all the other souls there.
We say, “I’m going to inhabit THAT persona this lifetime. I’m going to choose to be ‘Keith’ this lifetime.”
So, then we undergo this process, this transubstantiation of the spirit, of that Oversoul,
some part of that Oversoul separating, transubstantiating into physical form,
and that it takes 9 months.
Maybe that process is what guides the development of the embryo,
and, it just takes 9 months,
and by the time we’re born, we are fully inhabited
by our soul.
And we forget that transubstantiation
is the process of the Oversoul forgetting
and letting go of that “Oversoulness,”
and becoming just a part, a little part, a little baby.
And then it takes the rest of our lives, after being born,
to remember that we are divine, and we are part– we ARE
part of the Oversoul, we ARE OF the Universal Divinity.
We ARE part of the Universal Divinity.
We are Children of God.
What a dreamy time that is to be in,
what a perfect place to transubstantiate,
in the womb of our mothers…
And I always think of the fact that seawater and amniotic fluid–
the fluid that we are surrounded with and that we grow in, and that we develop in in our mother’s belly,
is the same chemical composition as sea water.
And so, what a dreamy, beautiful, peaceful time that is.
To awaken, gradually,
over the course of 9 months, to this life,
and to forget the spirit world,
from whence we came.
What a dreamy time, floating in our perfect little world,
gradually awakening to the sounds that are happening outside our mother’s womb.
And familiar with her voice,
the way she moves, gravity,
all these feelings of what Earth is, what physicality is, what it means to be a human, on Earth;
our father’s voice, the voices of our mother’s friends and loved ones,
the sounds of her world, becoming
where, gradually, through all this, this new world.
What a perfect introduction
into this physicality, into this–
Date: March 15, 2015 at 07:00PM