Little 1 – Heartbeats Mix

cover art for Little 1 - Heartbeats Mix
2015 March 15: added Milena’s sonogram of Kinich’s heartbeat in her womb, and little Sophia greeting me at the end. Also, added a gentle, subtle beat (kick, snare, two rides). And finally got around to transcribing the monologue, which was inspired by hearing the thrush of little Kinich’s developing heartbeat, and upon which the whole composition was inspired.


I wonder sometimes about how we’re born,
how we’re conceived, how consciousness arises from nothing…
Or, is it from nothing, or
are we simply transubstantiated from our previous
spiritual state into a new little embryo?
Or, when does our spirit enter our bodies?
When does our physicality become — spiritual?
When does our soul enliven, animate our body?
Does it happen at conception?
The moment of sperm fertilizing the egg?
Does it happen at the moment of our parents’ orgasm?
Does it happen at the point of birth?
Or is it a gradual thing?
I tend to think that it’s a process.
I tend to think that our spirits, our “Oversouls,” if you will,
make this agreement
while we’re out in the spirit world, in the “Well of Souls,”
we make this agreement with
all the other souls there.
We say, “I’m going to inhabit THAT persona this lifetime. I’m going to choose to be ‘Keith’ this lifetime.”
So, then we undergo this process, this transubstantiation of the spirit, of that Oversoul,
some part of that Oversoul separating, transubstantiating into physical form,
and that it takes 9 months.
Maybe that process is what guides the development of the embryo,
and, it just takes 9 months,
and by the time we’re born, we are fully inhabited
by our soul.
And we forget that transubstantiation
is the process of the Oversoul forgetting
and letting go of that “Oversoulness,”
and becoming just a part, a little part, a little baby.
And then it takes the rest of our lives, after being born,
to remember;
to remember that we are divine, and we are part– we ARE
part of the Oversoul, we ARE OF the Universal Divinity.
We ARE part of the Universal Divinity.
We are Children of God.
What a dreamy time that is to be in,
what a perfect place to transubstantiate,
in the womb of our mothers…
And I always think of the fact that seawater and amniotic fluid–
the fluid that we are surrounded with and that we grow in, and that we develop in in our mother’s belly,
is the same chemical composition as sea water.
And so, what a dreamy, beautiful, peaceful time that is.
To awaken, gradually,
over the course of 9 months, to this life,
and to forget the spirit world,
from whence we came.
What a dreamy time, floating in our perfect little world,
gradually awakening to the sounds that are happening outside our mother’s womb.
And familiar with her voice,
the way she moves, gravity,
all these feelings of what Earth is, what physicality is, what it means to be a human, on Earth;
our father’s voice, the voices of our mother’s friends and loved ones,
the sounds of her world, becoming
where, gradually, through all this, this new world.
What a perfect introduction
into this physicality, into this–

Date: March 15, 2015 at 07:00PM

Margin of Excellence Award!

This morning, I had just started BTS 161 class when some people started filing in through the door: Linda Walker with some balloons, my boss Suzanne, and a few others I knew…

At first, I thought some people needed to make an announcement, but then I saw BC President Dave Rule, and I thought I might be in serious trouble. But then there were cameras and microphones and a whole bunch of people I DIDN’T know, and then I thought, well, it’s definitely a long shot, but maybe I’ve won the Margin of Excellence Award

Sure enough, Linda walked up to me and gave me the balloons and hugged me, and the president walked up to me and shook my hand, and then started reading this long document saying how great I was and all that.

The room was *packed* with people– so many of my great friends from all over the college and many more people I don’t know, including someone from the BC either Board of Trustees or the BC Foundation. (I thought her name was “Lisa” something, but there is nobody named Lisa in either the Trustees or Foundation, as far as their current websites say– so I’m sorry to the nice lady who was there with me and Dr. Rule at the front of the class!)

I was completely surprised and flattered, and embarrassed a bit, with all those people watching me and all those cameras pointing at me. I can definitely see where celebrities may get over-inflated egos with all that attention being paid to them!

I need to give a little speech in June at the award ceremony– supposed to keep it to two minutes, and it’s only supposedly for saying “thank you’s”… However, I have been encouraged by mentors to use the opportunity as a platform to make a statement about education, Bellevue College, students, etc. So, for the “thank you’s,” I will mention as many of my mentors as I can; among them…

Marika Reinke, Eric Nacke, Suzanne Marks, Lisa Harris, Tonya Estes, Elaine Nutter, Rashmi Koushik, Linda Walker, Mary Corcoran, Zorica Wacker, Bill Iverson (Marika and he hired me!), Louis Watanabe, Louis Katz, Barbra Riley (Barbra gave me my first foot-in-the-teaching-door at TAMUCC), Robb and Vanessa Jackson, Veronica Guerra, my MOTHER Jo Anne Rowley and my sister Melodee Whitt, Melva Lou Sebesta, Linda Mulder, Alicia Dean, Gene McKinley, Norman Weinberg, David Mead, Greg Reuter, Leo Carrillo, Sam Logsdon … and I’m sure I’ll think of MORE!!!

And, regarding education, students, and Bellevue College, I do have a couple concerns– about the president’s and the board’s push for independence from the SBCTC and university-status, and about the college’s (and BTS’s) push online: I don’t want Bellevue College to forget its strengths and its most-vulnerable populations. I mean, online classes are good for many students, but not for all– we HAVE buildings and classrooms and excellent teachers; the University of Phoenix and Western Governor’s University DON’T. Well, they may have excellent teachers, but no matter how excellent they are, they’re still not HERE, NEXT to the students, twice a week, in the same physical space as students are. I’m cool with pushing into new modes/delivery methods, but they should be EXPANSIONS, not REPLACEMENTS for on-ground offerings. Especially with many of BTS’s students– ESL, ABE, Worker Retraining, etc., who need EXTRA support, not LESS support.

So… that’s kinda what I’m thinking about saying at the ceremony. I believe in Bellevue College, and its mission and its value to the community we serve. I want it to continue to be the assets that it is, and to become better at its mission and its constituents. I really don’t think it should be that hard…

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Curious Colors- 2nd Mix 2015-01-25

This music accompanied a dream I had the other night in which I was wandering a big, old, wooden-floored, high-ceilinged house. I made my way up the stairs to the second floor and was intrigued by a large open loft to the third floor, where colored light was filtering down through what appeared to by cloudy sheet plastic. The only way up, as far as I could tell, was by climbing a rather flimsy set of horizontally-laid door frames which were suspended by string or monofilament or thin wire. I could see the artist up there, strolling around in and out of the installation. She was beautiful, and her hair was blowing gently, along with the sheets. She noticed me and said, “come on up, it’s okay.” So I sat on the first door frame and got to my feet, and then the next, around the room like just a hint of stairs. When I arrived at the top, she took my hand and showed me around the installation, smiling. I was very happy.

Date: January 25, 2015 at 02:13AM

My Most-Listened-To Albums of 2014

John Wizards album coverAs with every year, I listened to a lot of music in 2014. And, as with every year, it was a good year for my ears.

Here are my 25 Most-Listened-To Albums of 2014. Now, remember that these are not (necessarily) albums that came out in 2014– in fact, I think Elizabeth’s Shepherd’s The Signal is the only album in this list that was released in 2014. No, this is simply a list (according to my obsessive scrobbling) of the albums from which I listened to at least one track — the most.

  1. John Wizards – John Wizards
  2. Telomere – The Stellar Sea
  3. Telomere – Astral Currents
  4. Telomere – Lux Primordia
  5. Telomere – Zoetosis
  6. Elizabeth Shepherd – The Signal
  7. Øystein Sevåg  – Space for a crowded world
  8. Benedicte Torget – After a Day of Rain
  9. The American Dollar – Music for Focus and Creativity
  10. Off the Sky – Gently down the stream
  11. Bill Nelson – The Practice of Everyday Life (Digital Anthology)
  12. ISHQ – Amaryllis Dream
  13. Frou Frou – Details
  14. ISHQ – Orchid
  15. The Cars – Candy-O
  16. Shrift – Lost In A Moment
  17. Blondie – Eat to the Beat
  18. Manual – Memory and Matter: Selected Remixes, Rarities and Unreleased Tracks
  19. Ranga – Radiant Awakening
  20. Tears for Fears – The Hurting (Super Deluxe Edition)
  21. Lusine – The Waiting Room
  22. Bill Nelson – Simplex
  23. ISHQ – Deep Space Objects
  24. +Elijah- and The Band of Light – The Preamble
  25. Kate Bush – Director’s Cut


An experiment with Ableton Live, Isotope Iris (the main layers of bells/chime samples– wow!), Applied Acoustic Systems’ Chromaphone (really malleable physical-modeling synth), and Live’s built-in toy piano samples.

Cover photo via Internet Archive Book Images:

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Date: December 22, 2014 at 05:50PM